Things feel a little better this morning, but I am still puzzled about what to do with "friends". My heart is telling me just to give up with everyone but my family, do my own thing, and just get used to it being that way. My head is telling me that perhaps this is a bit stupid and to make more friends. It seems I can't really trust any of the people I know at the moment in the way that *I* need.
Inevitably I guess things will change again, I'll relent, people will mess me around, and I'll feel the same again in a few weeks.