I was thinking. When I was with Marian I had a reason to go out, a reason to be with people. She was that reason. Now that I don't have her I don't have that reason do I? I find most people just plain selfish, and I just .... don't need it. Alternatively they are already cliqued, and I don't fit, don't look right, don't act right. I would rather be on my own than be with people I don't like. Is that so wrong? It just seems that the people I do like already have their own lives and just don't go out much, so I end up not going out much. End of story really.