The Stainless Steel Rat (stainsteelrat) wrote,
The Stainless Steel Rat

I guess I'm thinking about suicide again. Not a very nice thing and people don't like to hear about it but it's always kicking about there at the back of my head, like a fire escape. I guess some or all depressives, or basically very unhappy people must think about this. It's just not the done thing to discuss it. It certainly isn't a nice place to be when your position in life, or perceived position, is such that death seems a preferable alternative. I'm sure a lot of people won't understand this. I guess my concern is that being honest and caring doesn't really advance you anywhere in life. I've been there, done that, and have nothing to show for it. Currently I have no job, very few if any friends, and a tedious life. At least that's the way it feels.

My current favourite is to hang myself in the woods. I really love my local woods, and hanging seems like it might be relatively quick unless you choke to death. I guess I am worried I might fuck it up though and end up hanging there in agony for hours. It's a shame there isn't some simple pill you can get that will do the job painlessly. I guess I need to enter the Futurama age where suicide booths are rife.
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