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I guess I'm thinking about suicide again. Not a very nice thing and people don't like to hear about it but it's always kicking about there at the back of my head, like a fire escape. I guess some or all depressives, or basically very unhappy people must think about this. It's just not the done thing to discuss it. It certainly isn't a nice place to be when your position in life, or perceived position, is such that death seems a preferable alternative. I'm sure a lot of people won't understand this. I guess my concern is that being honest and caring doesn't really advance you anywhere in life. I've been there, done that, and have nothing to show for it. Currently I have no job, very few if any friends, and a tedious life. At least that's the way it feels.

My current favourite is to hang myself in the woods. I really love my local woods, and hanging seems like it might be relatively quick unless you choke to death. I guess I am worried I might fuck it up though and end up hanging there in agony for hours. It's a shame there isn't some simple pill you can get that will do the job painlessly. I guess I need to enter the Futurama age where suicide booths are rife.

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I have always thought I was too weak for suicide. I've tried it a couple of times, obviously none of which worked...

blah, before I start rambling about that nonsense, it's ok to talk about it... at least I think so. Actually, I believe it's actually healthier to talk about it, get it out in the opne, and if no one is listening at least you'll get some feed back from yourself (and i think you did.)

but it fucking sucks when no one wants to hear about it... iunno, maybe it doesn't it. i'm not sure if i'm comfortable talking to someone face to face about it... i do have someone, but my relationship with this person is really dimented and not healthy at all.

but anyways... i didn't know if you really wanted anyone commenting on this entry or not... so take this with a grain of salt if need be. i just wanted to let you know that i know whats going on, i understand somethings, and i'll listen.

It's nice to hear that someone else understands. Suicide is kinda swept under the carpet and ignored, even by Doctor's.

Don't worry about posting comments :-)

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